aa_pepper | ooc question meme

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Ask me questions about my character(s) and I will answer. The meme is entirely OOC, questions and answers both. Use it as a fun time to find about about character's choices, motivations, feelings, actions, or anything else you've been wondering.

i am sick, super tired, and whiney. so i will try to get to these, or i may never finish this meme at all, but.

applies to both pepper and clint.

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From:

aa_loki

Does Pepper have a social life? IF SO, WHAT IS IT LIKE? IF NOT, WHY NOT?

How has being mind-controlled changed you as an assassin agent, Clint? IF IT HAS.

From:

aa_pepper

Does Pepper have a social life? IF SO, WHAT IS IT LIKE? IF NOT, WHY NOT?

I think Pepper really tries to have a social life, just like I think she really tries to establish distinct boundaries between her work life and her home life. But, that said, I don't think she's very sucessful at either of these things.

I imagine that her job is very long hours, weekends, holidays, and that in itself doesn't lend well to having a regular social life with girl friends and dating and all the other things that would be classified as one. Plans are hard to make and keep, unless Tony happens to be out of town, and even when they are, she's likely very tired at the end of the day and would rather curl up on a couch with some popcorn and watch something stupid than deal with more people.

A social life to her would definitely feel like another job, forcing herself to get out there and mingle. Not that she doesn't have one at all. She has lunch dates and shopping with Janet, coffee with Natasha. She went to the museum with Steve. I just don't think it's a very active one.

I think on a subconscious, too, she is also self-sabotaging about the biggest part of any attempt at a social life: dating. Because, let's face it, there's some small (big) part of her that would like Tony to be in a place where they can move into a relationship.

So basically, yes, but not a very active one.

From:

aa_loki

YOU'RE TOO GOOD FOR HIMMMM

but I like this, that she might try, and isn't the stereotypical xcore career woman who HAS NO TIME FOR PEOPLE only scheduling meetings. Pepper is a pretty awsm character generally.

From:

aa_stark

SHUT IT, PRINCESS.

From:

aa_loki

PLEASE

YOU KNOW IT TO BE TRUE

From:

aa_stark

NO.

(yes)

From:

aa_pepper

How has being mind-controlled changed you as an assassin agent, Clint? IF IT HAS.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT, LOKI.

The biggest thing it's shaken in Clint, for me, is his confidence in himself. This was a man who was so sure of himself, and had every reason to be. He was an expert marksman, rarely missing a target, and an agent with such trust of SHIELD that he could go and recruit a Russian spy into the organization and Fury would just accept it. He was not only part of the team, but a valued part of it.

And now, people at SHIELD still (well, not right now) look at him like a man who has killed countless other agents, who is susceptible to brainwashing and turning against them at any moment. He definitely thinks they think he's broken, and should be replaced. More than that, he thinks some small part of him is broken. He's never quite sure what thoughts are his own and couldn't possibly be some small nugget of thought left over from Loki's brainwashing.

This is probably what Natasha feels all of the time, but he isn't as young and flexible as his partner. He's an old man, comparatively, and he's very much stuck in his ways. So some stray thought is enough to shake him into believing that Loki could still be there, in his head, and he worries too that at any possible time he could just--not be himself again. And if it happens next time, who is to say who will get hurt?

So, without all the rambling, definitely his confidence in himself and his own instincts.

From:

aa_natasha

I once read a fic that talked about this sort of abuse always taking something from you, and Natasha claimed that for Clint it was his confidence. He asked her what it was for her, and she said 'everyone tells me it's trust' and he asks her if they're right. And she says, 'probably. but that's what everyone tells me'.

Which I thought was interesting and clever and I actually started this comment to ask if I'd linked you that fic because if not I should find it for you.