ooc question meme

[aa_pepper]

Ask me questions about my character(s) and I will answer. The meme is entirely OOC, questions and answers both. Use it as a fun time to find about about character's choices, motivations, feelings, actions, or anything else you've been wondering.

i am sick, super tired, and whiney. so i will try to get to these, or i may never finish this meme at all, but.

applies to both pepper and clint.

Comments

[aa_pepper]

How has being mind-controlled changed you as an assassin agent, Clint? IF IT HAS.

THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THAT, LOKI.

The biggest thing it's shaken in Clint, for me, is his confidence in himself. This was a man who was so sure of himself, and had every reason to be. He was an expert marksman, rarely missing a target, and an agent with such trust of SHIELD that he could go and recruit a Russian spy into the organization and Fury would just accept it. He was not only part of the team, but a valued part of it.

And now, people at SHIELD still (well, not right now) look at him like a man who has killed countless other agents, who is susceptible to brainwashing and turning against them at any moment. He definitely thinks they think he's broken, and should be replaced. More than that, he thinks some small part of him is broken. He's never quite sure what thoughts are his own and couldn't possibly be some small nugget of thought left over from Loki's brainwashing.

This is probably what Natasha feels all of the time, but he isn't as young and flexible as his partner. He's an old man, comparatively, and he's very much stuck in his ways. So some stray thought is enough to shake him into believing that Loki could still be there, in his head, and he worries too that at any possible time he could just--not be himself again. And if it happens next time, who is to say who will get hurt?

So, without all the rambling, definitely his confidence in himself and his own instincts.

[aa_natasha]

I once read a fic that talked about this sort of abuse always taking something from you, and Natasha claimed that for Clint it was his confidence. He asked her what it was for her, and she said 'everyone tells me it's trust' and he asks her if they're right. And she says, 'probably. but that's what everyone tells me'.

Which I thought was interesting and clever and I actually started this comment to ask if I'd linked you that fic because if not I should find it for you.

[aa_loki]

:c

i mean

C: